kate- i'm sorry i don't tell you stuff and i do no that i can, and that you will help me....yes i know you wrote those comments in my last entry :D ok... so i don't tell my friends stuff, because they haveit worse then me, and i know they don't want to hear all my problems...cuz apparently my life is better then theres....but i guess they just don't really know..and yes that is one of my reasons why i don't tell you guys stuff...i know you guys care, and i know you worry but just stop...i'm cable of doing this... ok so i also don't like to tell people stuff because i don't like to share things, because it just causes problems, drama, or somthing to that effect... UGH.... my brothers an ass and he doesnt' care about anyone in his familys, he only cares about karas fuckin family...we are chop liver to him, and most of all his sister......who never gets to se him anymore, and never gets to spend time with him, talk, any of the things we use to do....its as if i'm invisable....like i am to everyone else...i'm just . well thats it for now.... Random Thought: if i leave him.....will he just get up and leave, or would he stay around for when i need someone... why do i date jerks, and guys that have problems which makes me not want to break up with them at any point in time... UGH!!!