its gone, im done, fuck it, im never gonna find ne one again, i dont have it in me to try anymore, theres gurls who like me and all i do is blow it off, im just gonna keep drinking partying working and such, its what im good at, no seriously fuck it im done, i dont have any intention on being with anyone and even if i do theres like some some hole in my head fuck i actually do, i feel like utter shit, theres a gurl that likes me and im fucking breaking her heart cause i cant decide if im ready or not to try again and i wanna be, i just cant get over myself. there you go, to all you who said it your right I CANT FUCKING GET OVER MYSELF FUCK ALL YOU.