Heres a thought maybe the past 5 years really are all my fault maybe i am the one thats caused all the pain and suffering to myself and others good old life altering decisions, dont get me wrong theres been good far more bad heh.. in 5 years maybe we'd try again... thats not going to happen, your better off anyways, he's actually going somewhere me? i wander around, wondering if I will ever get another chance at happiness but hey karma hates me so i doubt it but its ok, i have good friends, they will take care of the next 10 years then its all me wonder whats going to happen? i think i already know i'd say the dumb shit i've done since that night back in late 2007 but i dont think you need to know hell i wonder if you will ever read this it sucks haha, your the only one i'd ever give it all for still, i dont care one chance i'd take you back we'd actually do this right but thats never going to happen i am at peace with that, always know that i just wish there was another you out there though i doubt thats possible, well its actually IMPOSSIBLE, but you prolly know what i mean aha.. if you ever do read this your going to hate me... please dont, maybe i'll finally feel better having written this this is all over the place, i used to think i was a great writer, you did as well.. oh well, everything has to end sometimes.. please dont actually read this, its fucking retarded, here i will be blunt im not over you, im never going to be by the looks of things and im doomed :) but alots happened, i've changed i can admit these things now, instead of bottling them i hope you two have a great life.. let me know how things are we can still talk this really is dumb on my part ugh fml ahha this is 2 years over due almost well actually yeah it is 2 years now.. alright im going to end this i just wanna know tho do i get another chance? not with you per say but do i? or do i stay alone? you tell me im tired of searching im gone goodnight goodluck because mines run out