Current Music: Fuct Up Kid-Mest Well I feel depressed.. again.. its happened alot lately.. dont really wanna go into the ones in the past week but i think i kno why i am tonight. Work.. is starting to suck lol, i got my reward for selling the most yesterday.. a 4 hour shift on saturday.. also at work i overheard steve and tim(whos a newbie like me) talkin aboot how he gotta check up from elaine.. apparently it means hes hired fully.. I also heard them talking aboot someone: "hes a great guy and all but i dont think hes gonna make it here" dont kno what thats aboot.. actually fuck that i do.. its aboot me or jordan the two other dude newbies.. so one(or maybe both of us) are gettin canned.. fuck.. that job owns.. MUSIC CHANGE: Drawing Board-Mest Another reason is a talk me and mom had on the drive home "everyone thinks your dads sick and that really got him depressed"(NOTE: He'd been havin shots of whisky all the time he was home) which pretty much gave me a relapse of myself on the camping trip.. i said why dont we get ridda the hard stuff but mom was all defensive sayin she likes it in her tea.. i dont get it.. all of us are depressive drunks(just some "mom & dad" would never admit it while i do) so why not get ridda the poison? i dont kno.. MUSIC CHANGE: The Final Moments-Rudely Awakened so yeah.. im not sure if those are the reasons or its the fact that i dont get to see meaghan till after school has started or w.e it may be.. but im down.. sucks too cause im supposed to be the strong one.. heh.. thats wrong