Current Music: System of a Down: Hypnotise cd So Heres Kinda A "Year In Review" that i stole from thomas.. lol january: didn't start off great at all, i still kinda liked steph and christine told me that she wouldn't go for me(which i later on found out that was cause christine liked me too..) and ye, i started likin scarlett again, especially around the enda the month when me, her, alyssa, and mike got trashed in tyler.. i forget his last names basement, that was like the enda the month too so yeah.. febuary: SUCKED! lol first off i asked scarlett out and she pretty much laughed right in my face... after that i became A HUGE ASSHOLE(even more then in december 05) and didn't care aboot anything or anyone anymore, i cant really remember too much more aboot the month its alot of haze and blurryness march: change started, again i dont remember much except the break, i had stopped wearing such baggy black shit and stopped just listening to metal and started listenin to alternative and punk and grunge again and that, i also went to a Rudely Awakened concert with mike and aj and that was pretty sik, plus i got ma eyebrow pierced.. which was fine till it started too SUCK!!!!... thats it for march april: AHAHAHAHAHAH i dont remember anything in this month at all.. wait nvm, i remember john hookin me up with sabrina.. not really too great BUT.. it lead to far far far x 6.02 to the power of 10 x 23(you kno who you are if you kno that.. if i fucked it up.. oops lol) better.. this is around the time i re met meaghan:), we chilled with john and linds really as two 3rd wheels and just had fun together and liked being around eachother, at the enda the month i asked her out.. at first she didn't kno then..(well read her sit too see how it unfolded..) may: i felt down again, because i figured i may as well give up, hey i'd find someone else right? fuck up again right?) nope:), on the 2nd began the greatest 8 months of life ever, she wrote yes on my hand, of course i didn't kno what it meant until linds said "YOU TOOL, SHE SAID YES TO YOU, SHE WANTS TO BE WITH YOU" :D:D:D:D:D:D and so it began. if you wanna hear a buncha mushy stuff i'd write aboot all the firsts and shit of our first month but i'll spare ya'll june: one month lol, not too to much happened in this month, twas alot like may still until the enda the month when school let out, she went away for a week and i said goodbye to her for awhile july: 1st.. OWNED even tho meaghan wasn't there, me and jordan went to the lake on a long adventure through da durty south of the shwa, twas interesting and fun, we met up with randy, cavell, amanda and kyle, the rest of the day/night was fun, met up with a buncha ppl and chilled with homiez, we brought our own fireworks and lit it off, then chilled somemore and then watched the lake fireworks and went home during the pouring rain on our bikes, not much else happened until.. meaghan came back:D! the first few days of that were completely awesome, i stayed at her house one night and we did a buncha other stuff, we went to the lake a bit during the month and alota sik stuff, then we went on the camping trip which was sik too except it was the first sour moment of us, ala adams drinkingness, i was trashed every night of it, the last was the worst, just the beginning of assholness too.. august: started off uneasy causea the trip but that was quickly forgivin and forgotten with a few thingers put in place, that weekend i stayed at her house the whole weekend pretty much, that was awesome.. we also went to wonderland on the 12th and that was fun, then assholness no.2 happened, we were messing around with a shopping cart, me, frodo, and nikki and we texted her saying "adam says he loves you and hes goin down a hill in a shopping cart" if you wanna read aboot it go to her entry, but yeah that was the worst thing i'd ever done, unfortunatly it wasn't the last worst thing of the year, but we were really uneasy for abit, we went to the ex together and that was fun and didn't really do too much more the resta the month except for goin to aimee's party and me drinking again, also i pretty much forgot too mention that i got a job at.. WEST49!!!!!!!! lol really suprised i forgot that cause i got it in july, but ye i was workin everyday at the enda august and didn't really see her much then she went away sept: work eased off and school started.. seen meaghan the first day of it tho so that was cool, still worked quite a bit this month and chilled alot more with pplz well unfortunatly still acting like an ass, especially one weekend where she came to see us and i pretty much ignored her the whole time, not much else this month except work and nothing really.. oct: thanksgiving weekend owned:) it really did lol worked alittle less i think.. not too much happened until around my birthday and meaghan suprised me with a fucking awesome bday party at the lake:) honestly she is the best ever im not even lying, unfortunatly again i acted like an ASSHOLE again that night.. but we forgot aboot that too.. my real bday happened and halloween was cool but ye.. MUSIC CHANGE: Rise Against: The Sufferer and The Witness cd november: this is where things started getting messed up, meaghan and i had our six month but it just got messed, i started questioning us alot in my head, and alota stuff increased, school was shit and i wasn't happy at all, all the time i held it it that i hated life again.. yep life sucked then, i vowed to feel better around the enda the month, but that didn't help dec: started off alright but turned into the worst time of us "So give me the drug, Keep me alive, Give me what's left of my life, But let me go. Pull this plug, Let me breathe, On my own I'm finally free, Don't let me go": injection-Rise Against that was how i felt, and one day it came to a head, fitz told me something and it set it off in me and i pretty much snapped at meaghan over it, asking her if we were done and shit like that.. she told me no and i thought "ok thats it, theres nothing more wrong" except that it wasn't her, it was me.. and i thought maybe i wanted out and i told her, worst day/night of like ever, i couldn't even work that night after aimee asked me "how are ya" i broke down, after this i took time to figure it out and i came to the conclusion:(this is kinda gay sounding but its true) what happens in my haunted head doesn't outweigh what i think in my heart, now i kno, dont use your head, use your heart lol, the week after we were ALOT better and spent christmas together, that was extremely awesome and we felt alot closer then before, not much else except for last night when i took something the wrong way.. and KIM MITCHELL!!!!! ya! well thats all for this year im gonna write a resolutions entry now so yeah