i decided that it was time for a new diary. i got tired of the old one- it was filled with tooo many bad memories and mistakes. the first day over summer vacation has officially sucked- and unfortunatly im thinking that thats a sign for the rest of the summer. last night i went to lance and rychelles apartment for a small shin-dig. and at first i thought that it was going to be extremely boring and dumb but it turned out to be rather fun. there was like nine or ten of us hanging out and we all got pretty wasted. it sounds weird but i deffinitly needed it- yesterday was just a weird day for me and ive been thinking about all of the stuff thats been going on lately- it was just good to not think about it for a little while. its like over the past week or so ive had so much stuff on my mind and theres been so much going on and its been alot to deal with all at once. i dont even know where or how to begin to explain everything thats been happening- not to mention that it would take me forever to write about. one of the big things thats been bothering me is all this stuff going on with kiki- which is probably me just being a psycho but i dont know- were most deffinitly not like the same friends that we used to be. i feel like i cant even talk to her about serious stuff lately and when i try to talk to her its like she has to go or something. it used to be that she was the one person that i knew i could talk to about anything and she would understand but now it doesnt seem like that at all. its like im stuck and i have no one to turn to anymore. and i know that there stuff thats happened lately that ive taken really personally and she probably didnt even realize how much it bothered me- but it did. i guess i still have alot to think about. and i still have tonns of stuff to do for tomorrow and the rest of the week- thats enough for now. latter kiddds.