had to get up extremely early this morning to say goodbye to lj. cuuute kid- i think that he might be coming down again soon- which would be good. my mom and him woke me up at 7 and i said goodbye to him and then i went back to bed. i was so tired that it wasnt even funny. i woke up like 15 minutes before my gma got here. that was wonnderful. so after good old grams picked us all up (we car pooled- how cool is that) we went back to her house to wait for my uncle and my cousins to get there. i once again fell asleep waiting for them to get there. then they finally got there and we had to go to like 15237574385 places before we could finally go to the campground. and we almost died like a million times because my gma is a crazed driver. well we got there and we just sat around... i again fell asleep but i was woken up tonns of times because people were coming and going- rather annoying. so we ended up just hanging out at the campsite all day and it was cold there in the morning and i thought that it would possibly get warmer in the afternoon but it never really did. i was freezing all day. well there was this one guy that was there today- he was soo cuuuuuute. and my moms boyfriend for the past 2 days has been able to like pick out which guy (or guys) he thinks that i would like or think was cuuute and hes been right everytime. yesterday it was the stoner looking guy that worked at the place where the picnic/carnival thing was... and a couple of other guys that worked there... and today it was "edison" :) its actually kind of weird and creepy. but anyways they were all rather cuute and they gave me something to look at while i was sitting there being booooored. and although i sound like boy crazed- ive still had one boy on my mind. nooot good at all. the past few times that ive stayed at shelles and ive had a few ive been so tempted to just call him and be like your coming over here- but i know that i shouldnt and ive done good restraining myself but im not sure how much more restraining i can do- especially if i get as bad as i was on friday night. its annoying- i see him like everywhere that i go. nooot cooool. oh and i found out today that my cousins are coming in town? yeah id like to kick there asses seeing that the two of them are being fucking retarded. neither one of them called anyone to say that they were coming in town... and i guess theyre planning on not going to see any of our family? and there staying at my ex-aunts house? really retarded and beyond annoying. and i dont even care that theyre staying there or anything- i just get pissed and annoyed because i have to listen to my family bitch about them and it gets old. if they would just call and say that they were coming and then stop in and see some of our family- then no one would bitch and i wouldnt have to hear about it- but nooo that would be to simple. well even with that said- i think that im going to try and hang out with them before they leeeave because i havent seen them in forevvver. tomorrows my math final which im going to do terrible on. and then im not sure whats going on after that- im thinking that theres a party in store for tomorrow night? haha- well i know theres deffinitly one for wednesday night... but im thinking that one for tomorrow might be needed. i still havent talked to keishelle and its been like four days now? i was talking to tara earlier and i looove her to death but i know that she plays dumb about stuff with keishelle- i mean obviously she knows that things arent ok. maybe she doesnt... i dont knoooow- im not really sure what to do anymore. i think that im not going to talk to her until she talks to me because im not going to be like begging her to be my friend and thats what its felt like lately. well even though i slept like a million different times today im still like beyond tired. i think that im going to go to bed now and then hopefully ill be a little bit more awake for the final tomorrow. lattter kiiddds.