i was suppossed to go to my regular doctor today-- but nope. i had to go back to the emergency room. and i spent a good chunk of the day there. the doctor there said that the way my nose is is because theres swelling on my face and that the bump formed because of where the swelling is or something like that. he gave me all new medications and stuff-- so i now take 6 pills a day? plus a spray for my nose? yeah so im basically drugged up. and he pulled me from work for the next few days... and no gym until further notice. which im deffinitly not complaining about. so after i went to school to drop off some papers and pick some of my work up and i saw some of my loves which made me feel better because even though i looked like shit and had just got back from the hospital they had me laughing and feeling better. which means the world to me because i love them tons and dont know what id do without them. and tonight basically everyone i know and hang out with went out to bocas because we dont have school tomorrow. and i always go to bocas-- i go every week even if there is school the next day. but tonight my mom refused to let me go because i need to ' get some rest' so who knows when shell let me back out of this house. i need to be around my friends and have a little fun-- i think that itll be good for me. not to mention that i hate being stuck here in my house with my family. like i love them all for the most part but when im with them all tooo long then i get cranky- i need my space away from them. so hopefully my mom will let me go out tomorrow night or something because i just need to get out for a little while. and my mom was talking to me today about money again- and really just irritating me. she wants me to give her each of my checks for "a while" and i dont know how much im liking that. but she said that shell fix my car and give me gas money- and that wed work out other money? not really sure why shes doing it because its going to start even more problems then are really necessary. i really think that its just another attempt to somehow control me and control what i do because she knows that after this year im gone and shes not going to have any control over my life. so well have to wait and see what happens with everything... hopefully tomorrow ill be feeling better and ill be able to get out of the house for a while and just have time to have some fun and clear my head.