the past few nights have been extremely late nights. so im beyond tired right now and im starting to get a little burned out-- so im going to need to rest a few days this week so then this weekend i can go out especially seeing that its a three day weekend. i think that im going to try and spend a little bit more time at home because im falling behind in a lot of things that i shouldnt be falling behind in-- and ive just got to get back on track with a lot of things. so the friends might be a little bit irritated but there just going to have to get over it because ive got to get some stuff back in order and i need some alone time. dont get me wrong ive been having tons of fun with everyone and i love them all to death but im just getting really drained. and then past few times that ive been out ive had fun but i havent really done anything that ive wanted to do so ive been kind of pissy about going out and going places lately. today i spent the entire day with the whole family for christmas at my grandparents-- we celebrate christmas so late just because we have to wait and find out when we could all get together. this year wasnt really all that exciting but there wasnt to much drama-- which is a huge change seeing that theres usually a huge fight that erupts at some point during the day between people. things with a certain guy are so-so. i guess that that would be the best way to describe how things are? i think that the only reason that i feel like things are so-so is because i havent seen him in a while and i really want to talk to him and see him soon-- because as of tomorrow itll be a week since ive seen him. but ive basically talked to him everyday. weve got to talk about a lot of things whenever we get together-- which will hopefully be soon. its kind of weird to even hear myself say but i sort of miss him. i think that ill probably talk to him at some point tonight after he gets out of work. anyways... well have to wait to see how things go between him and i. well im way to tired to go on about all the other drama thats taking place. so maybe update more later or tomorrow? payce kids.