i dont know how much more i can take. you ever get the feeling that the world is caving in all around you and the only thing you can do is sit back and watch. yeahh well anyways-- thats the feeling that i have right now. so much stuff has gone on and happened and i dont know its just all been to much at once i think. and then of course tonight my mom feels the need to do some form of intervention-- i really wasnt feeling it. she wanted me to just talk to her about everything going on-- soo finally when i blow up and just say a bunch of stuff that is bothering me because she wont leave me alone... she gets pissed off and starts yelling and screaming and then says whatever well finish this tomorrow. shes soo god damn annoying- i dont want to finish it tomorrow. im done basically with my fucking life here... i cant wait to move and be gone. i cant stand this place or the people here anymore. basically everything from my friends to school to family to guys is bothering me and i dont really want to talk about it to anyone. i just want to be left alone but noooo-- apparently thats way to much to ask for. when im ready to talk to people about whatever i will. its really that simple. uggg-- i know that im saying so much of all of this because im tired and upset and just angry at everyone and even more angry with myself but i dont know. thats all for now-- im going to sleep because i already know tomorrows going to be a long day and me being wicked tired on top of it really isnt going to help at all.