talked to keishelle. she vented tonns although she says that she has nothing to ever talk about? but it was good because at least she finally talked to me- but then she had to go so i vented to her away message. im sure shell love getting that message in the morning or whenever because its rather long. i got some things off my chest so to say but not everything i guess. maybe its just that ive been playing it off as if everythings ok but on the inside i feel like im barely hanging on. i mean i write about mostly all the good stuff or normal 'teen drama' stuff in here but theres so much more stuff going on that i wouldnt even know where to begin with all of it. i guess im afraid of loosing another constant in my life. things are always changing around here so when theres one good thing that stays the same for a while i have a hard time letting it go. not to mention that fact that kiiik may be the one person who actually understands me (or at least used to) and knows me better than i even know myself. theres just been so much going on lately and its all been really overwhelming and its been 14378934 more times difficult with no one to talk to about it. i dont know what to do anymore. i dont want to feel this way. i want my bestfriend back. im tired of being tired. i hate feeling alone in this world. i just want everything to be ok for once :'(