so everythings over between us. the "truth" finally came out-- when once again in my life i had to be the mature one and i brought it out. and out of everyone involved in the entire situation im the youngest and im still more of an adult then everyone else. but i havent talked to him since friday night-- and then all of this stuff happened on saturday so i dont really think that im going to be talking to him. and what sucks is that i still kinda wish that id get to talk to him-- at least one more time so that he could at least apologize and tell me the truth and really mean what he says but for some reason i dont see that ever happening. he basically broke my heart in two and i feel like ive wasted so much time with him. on top of that my mom found out about everything-- well she didnt just randomly find out about-- we talked about it and she knows everything thats happened. she was a little bit upset but understands that im older now and that i can have a relationship and do things that i want to do and that theres not really alot of stuff that she can do about it. but shes cool with me seeing basically whoever i want-- but she just worries about me getting hurt or having a mistake happen that will screw up my future. my birthday is in nine days and im most deffinitely going out with the crew :) thats really the only thing thats making me happy right now. the other thing is that i need to find a new guy before my birthday... so that way i can go out and spend the night having fun with someone i want to-- and have fun on my birthday :) so im trying to be positive and im trying not to think about all of the bad things-- but its still been easier said than done.