havent updated in forever. actually i havent really been home in forever. weve (a bunch of us coool kidds) have basically been staying at shelles apartment every night and its been a blast. its like weve moved in or something. its been really funn. things with her and lance are so-so as of now but its cool because hes always there tooo so i get to hang out and talk with him. i guess everyone still kinda has a problem that him and i are (in some peoples words?) "best friends" which is ridiculous. last night was insane and kind of pointless at the same time but all in all fun. a bunch of us went out. we first had to go meet some girl and then all of this stuff happened and then we headed over to bocas. i talked to some people that ive either never talked to or barely ever talked to before. weirrd. i didnt like being the DD but i made up for it when we got home. after we left bocas we went to dennys and had a blast there- haha. can i just say that i love my friends and that this summer has been terrible at times but its been like one of the best summers at the same time. and when we hang out its always such random people who were all with but its some of the best times that ive ever had. well any tonights round three of the partying with our creeeew- haha. first a bunch of us are going to the art-walk and then were going to some place out in forks? or something like that- i really have noo idea. all i know is that because i was the DD last night- im not the DD tonight :) and im planning on getting smashed. very excited i ammm. well theres been lots of other things that have been going on as well. my moms been really sick and shes been out of work because its been so bad. her doctor wants to send her to syrcacue or to sayre to see more specialists and stuff. and i dont know- i guess i try to not really think about it to much because as irrated that ive been when they keep telling us that they dont know whats wrong- i think im even more scared to find out what it is... and its weird because at times she seems fine and then like an hour later shes like beyond sick. and on top of that shes been stressing even more about stuff because were basically broke and shes really far behind on her bills. im the only one who knows other than her boyfriend that theyve sent notices to forclose on our house. so yeah thats always good. so now on top of her being out of work and being sick we have to deal with all of that. and not only that yesterday i was driving over to shelles house- and my car got all messed up. i guess that it has to be realigned or however its spelled- and then one of the struts (i think thats what they said) snapped in half and so now that entire thing has to be replaced. and so im not sure how im going to get to work and i have noo money to have it fixed right now and i have noo idea what im going to do. so some things this summer- as far as partying and hanging out with my friends- thats been awesome. but as far as my "home-life" its been hell and i think thats why ive tried just to not be home because its really been all to much to deal with. i dont know- i guess i cant really find the words to describe everything thats been going on. and the sad thing is that the stuff with my mom and my car and being basically broke- thats just a little bit of everything thats been happening. well shelles going to be here in like an hour or soo. so ive got to go pack and get ready for all of tonights exciting events. until i have time to update again- latter loooves.