well i thought of something and it truely pissed me off but thanks to amy im not really as worried. like im worried but not as worried because she told me she doesnt think that that would ever happen. which is good because i would seriously have to beat some ass and i would never forgive this person- maybe better yet- these people. because it would like seriously kill me. tomorrow night im going out :) or at least i hope that im going out- as long as my mom doesnt go like psycho on me about it in the next like 48 hours. and i think that i should try and find someone to start to talk with while im out just because. its not even that i need a boyfriend or whatever like some girls say- but i want one. and a good one too. not one thats going to like be an asshole and treat me like shit. i want someone whos going to be sweeet and cute and romantic. that is theee goal. and im thinking that thats not going to happen. ohh well- a girl can always hope righht. well ive got to figure out whats going on tonight. some of the girls want to hang out but im not sure if im going to. i think im going to do like 143782 loads of laundry and then work on college stuff because i have tonns of applications to fill out and essays to start writing.