havent written in what seems like forever. things with keishelle havent really gotten any better. i mean we talked the other day about fighitng and whats going on and stuff. i guess we both agreed that there are some things that we both need to work on- and we havent talked since then. so still as of today im without my best friend... again. and it sucks because this is probably the time that i need a friend the most. the past like three days have been complete hell in my house. the other night my mom decided to get into a fight with all of us? she started flipping out and then she hit me and my sister- of course my sister cries about it- but i just looked at her. it honestly took everything in me not to hit her back. then the next day we all had to have some pointless talk. apparently shes sick of being a mother for people who dont appreciate it? and we (meaning me and theee siblings) were like what the fuck is wrong with your brain. but then she proceeds to take away my car- apparently for good. so now i have no way to get to kris' house to babysit. so that means no money unless she can bring the boys here. then she starts bitching about the cell phone bill and now apparently at night shes taking away everyones cell phones because everyones on the phone at all times during the night? so that pissed me off even more. basically right now- i hate her and theee boyfriend (who believes that he has a say in this house) more than anything. and now from saturday to tuesday we have to go to new hampshire to see his family? and im wicked pissed because i dont want to go. i cant stand them right now- let alone ride like 6 hours in a car with them and spend four days without thee computer and without my cell phone. its going to basically be even more hell. and we all havent partied in a little while either because last time that we did- i guess that after we all left the cops showed up at rychelle and lances house? from what i heard- the neighbors called the cops because we were being loud. but we were basically just sitting and hanging out in the house all night so i dont see how that was possible. her neighbors are crazy... but today just to get out of the house i went with miss rychelle to see lance at work and to go grocery shopping. always funn times. she invited me to come over to her house tonight after she gets out of work so hopefully the psychos will let me out of this hell hole. but other than that theres nothing else thats really new. things have been kinda boring and its been wicked hot here lately. apparently im needed downstairs- so ill update more later. adiooos kiddds.