I'm extremely annoyed and upset and hurt- and basically all of those feelings that people hate to have- right now. So I guess I decided to vent and update at the same time. And just to make this updating simple Im gonna update in like sections so this way I dont forget anything-- so first... College: Well Im not going to St. Johns anymore because theres noo way I can afford it... basically balled my eyes out about that for days but instead Im going to Buffalo (UB) and who knows what Ill really do up there... other than probably freeze to death- literally. Prom: There was so much drama when it came to prom and it literally caused world war three between all of my friends... and there still is some problems and things we need to work out but for the most part things have settled down and stuff. Theres about a million things that I still have to do for prom... I already got my dress and payed for the limo-- but I have to get my shoes and jewelry and stuff... and I have to make an appointment to get my hair and my nails done. And I need to figure out how Im really going to be able to pay for dinner-- I guess that the place were going to is like $50 a person then you have to add tax and tip on to that-- so dinner itself is going to be over $100... and I have this feeling that my mom is gonna basically laugh in my face and be like heres $20 have fun with that. And P was suppossed to go with my to prom because Chris wanted to go and he wanted to go and I told P that I would take him- hes like my big brother so I know that we would have tons of fun if he went... and now hes like disappeared. I havent seen or talked to him in literally forever so basically I had a date to prom and then I didnt... but I went to the shop the other day and Q told me that he wanted to go and he would take me-- so I think that Q is going now? Hes like literally old enough to be my dad but hes another one whos like my big brother so if he goes itll be fun but I dont know for some reason Im worried that its going to be awkward. So who knows how thats really all gonna work out... all I know is that Im planning on having tons of fun and thats the bottom line. Graduation: So graduation is coming way to fast-- Im excited and Im ready but Im like nervous and scared and sad all at the same time... Im pretty excited for the actual day of graduation because tons of our friends are going up to the events center to cheer for us and stuff and then were all going out after and then the following day is my graduation partay and they all better be there and were most deffinitly going out that night too! but yeahh... its going to be a rather good time. Guys: So Mike is gone for a while... but he wrote Erin a letter the other day and said hes soo sorry for all of the bad things hes ever done to all of us and he said that he hopes that I really dont hate him and all of this stuff and that he misses all of us and cant wait to see us and hang out when he comes home and stuff. I dont really know how thats all going to work out but whatever... Ive seriously given him so many chances and stuff that its ridiculous and all Ive ever done for him was help him out and try my hardest to be there for him and stuff and he still treats me like shit... typical guy. And then aside from Mike theres Biggs... well I didnt talk to him for such a long time- like I literally hung out with Focus and Hez and still didnt talk to him... I mean he never came around but like I wouldnt even ever ask about him and stuff and then one day on my myspace he decides to leave me this random comment-- so I sent him a message back about it and then we started talking... and then later on that night I was at a party and decided to call him. I was literally on the phone with him the entire time I was at the party and we talked about so much stuff. So then for the past week or soo him and I have talked basically every day-- and like hes the one who calls me (at all hours of the night at that) to talk to me and stuff... soo he tells me that he really needs to and wants to see me so he asked if Friday night I could come over to his house after he got out of work... so I made plans to go and then he calls me while I was out at Josh&Allisons cabin and tells me that he has to go to the city in the morning and wanted to know if i would hang out with him Saturday night instead and I was like well Ill see what I can do Im pretty sure that I can and he was like please please please try to be able to come and see me. So AGAIN I make arrangements so that I can come and see him and when I call him he tells me ohh yeah let me call you back on my break... does he call-- noo. Soo I wait up for a while and try to call him and then his phones off. I was like youve got to be kidding me... soo basically right now Im getting ready to call him and be like what the fuck is wrong with you and just say a bunch of stuff to him because hes really killing me with this bullshit. And he tries to say that I play games with him- he plays games with me a ton. So I dont know... and basically I wont know anything until after I talk to him tonight- then again who knows... he might not want to answer his phone. ...but Im getting to be so tired and I guess that stuff about the guys and about prom and graduation and college and stuff were either the important things or the first few things that came to mind. Ill try to update more tomorrow about the Biggs situation if I talk to him and about family, job, and all of that good stuff. Until whenever- later kids.