last night was kind of confusing but needed at the same time. it was the first time out of my house basically since the accident and it was really the first time that me and someone got to hang out alone together. got way to fucked up last night which didnt help the whole situation but i dont know what i feel after last night. i cant decide if i really like him or if it was 'drunk me' that likes him. either way last night was fun :) so well have to see what happens tonight. one good thing is that got my massage which made me very happy :) so who knows. this is all kind of confusing because part of me does like him and thinks hes cute and the other part is really unsure about the whole thing. well anyway ill have to update in more detail later because i have to go to work- first day back to work tooo. lots of firsts in the past like 24 hours.