... and tired on top of confused. im still not really sure how i feel about everything thats happened- and of course last night we were suppossed to hang out and i was super excited and then things sort of fell through? but i still dont really know what to do about everything because i dont know if i like him or if it was just like a thing. and i dont think that im going to see him or talk to him until maybe thursday at the earliest- if he decides to go downtown... but after last week he might not want to- and if hes still not feeling good then he probably wont want to. but i should see him at some point over the weekend because if i dont then im going to be highly upset and im already upset because i wanted to go and see him last night. and i really doubt that the things he said friday- about hanging out tomorrow and going over to his house and stuff- well i dont see all of that working out. one because i have to work tomorrow night and by the time im done im just going to want to go home and my moms going to want me home after work and two because hell probably be retarded and not want to or forget about it completely. uggg- i dont know what to do. its just weird- i cant stop thinking about him and about what happened. this is all very confusing and i think that im going to stay confused until i see him or talk to him- and im deffinitly not calling him because i get nervous about stuff like that even though i shouldnt. but i still do. and i almost forgot- my cars finally fixed and im driving tomorrow for the first time since the accident and im kinda nervous. and tomorrows the first day back to school since the accident. so hopefully people are done talking about me and about what happened. lots of drama and even more confusion- all of which i dont really need right now. but i think that im just going to try and let things go and let things just sort of happen.