yeah, well all that junk about me not beings ure about jane isn't all wrong. but i don't think i feel as emphaticlly about it as it may seem on paper. i'm just a man. i feel, i hurt, i fear, and i love. maybe i love too much. i like people till they give me a reason not to. same with trust and love. and i still love everybody. i mean that sounds cliche and trite, but it's true, i bear no one and real ill will. i wish people would chill and quit being assholes, and i'm thje first in line to feed someone their teeth, but everyone needs a reminder of the inherent consequences of being an asshole. everyone needs a good old fashioned ass=whoopin' once and awhile. plain and simple. and i guess i've gotten over the high (or low) of being in South Padre island with beautiful girls,. far from home. but i can't say i regret any of it. it was damn fun, and i wouldn't change a thing..........yeah i would, i woulda doen a few things different, i woulda talked to stephanie more on a friend level, i still woulda flirted my ass off. but that girl needs somebody to love her. i really feel kinda like a heel cuz all i did for her was flirt and play with her, i mean, sure, that was her gameplan too. but i know that the time she spent with me as a dude, a person of the opposite sex who flirted with her, i was the kindestand gentlest. i didn't even make any sudden moves or try to go for the kill. it was just fun. but still it nags me, she needs someone.someone to treat her in a way that would raise her self-esteem, someone to actually love her, someone to be there for her, she needs a dude who appreciates her for all the things no one sees. she's smart, she's quick-witted, she;s on top of things, and she knows what the fuck is going on. all everyone sees is the devestating beauty, there is an incredibal beauty inside of her no one even bother to look for. this ones for stephanie...wherever you are girl, you got a friend.