i totally want to see stephanie. i've become smitten. time goes by so slowly. i'm going to kiss her on the forehead. she'll kiss me on the mouth. i just have this awesome feeling. and a surprising lack of doubt. i love having her in my arms. she fits, you know. like she belongs there. there was always awkwardness with jane, but everything has it's place with steph. maybe i'm ridiculous, but i don't care. if i get rejected, there's always weed. and my friends got my back. and i always have my name man jesus to fill me up when i am running on "E". well, adios, time for to get beautiful.