i've said on here that i loved sara, and i believe i did. but now over the past week as i've tried to forget that i did love her i've been really happy and stuff, it's been wierd, all the drama was gone from my thoughts and everything was everything. but yesterday i got out of bed with a broken heart. i ache and i can't stop. i feel so numb, yet so sensitive, i'm irratable and quiet. i havn't wanted to laugh or get high or go out or anything. i don't know what's wrong with me. i just know now that i really did love her and that i really do. and that she really doesn't understand how i feel or what is going through my head, it isn't about being her boyfriend, i don't want that drama, i don't want this drama. i just want to be the one for her, i want it to be both of us together, not i love her or she loves me, but we love each other. no bullshit, no complications, just best friends who happen to kiss and cuddle. why does everyone think that is so wrong? why do we all have to be so fucking petty? i'm 17, i want to have fun. this shit is not fun. jesus... hope you didn't slit your wrists to that one.