i am back on the prowl. alex has a new boyfriend( i told you i was right!, hahahaha). and it isn't me:| oh well. c'est la vi, you know, just to be clichè. you know how it is. but today, well, i don't know why, i just feel invincible and fragile at the same time. i need a break from the guessing and junk, but i'm just so used to being lonely. it's hard to remember what it is to have a girlfriend. and the way my relationships have gone i may as well wipe the slate clean and say i never had a girlfriend, because those relationships were so warped and manipulated and messy, bah to all of that. and bah i say again. humbug, furthermore. i feel something is nigh, something impacting, something positive. it gets worse before it gets better, and man, i've been down so long it looks like up to me. peace love and marijuana sauce...