i felt so ridiculously sexy tonight. an extremely odd thing to feel i know, but still, i was cooler than freddie jackson sippin' a milkshake in a snowstorm. so fresh, so clean. sra goldfish brought this ridiculously good looking girl with her to church tonight. i should talk to her. and sadly heather was MIA. i talked to samantha some more, but i feel like an ass. i think i'm leading her on. at least from her point of view. and she's getting big again... fast. and doing nothing about it. a month ago i would go out with her no problem, but she's really blowing up. i am an ass. oh well. and vanessa is so fine and cool, it's ridiculous. but still, there is this girl i've known for awhile that i almost never see, but talk to all the time online. i think i may just hold out for her. she's worth it. peace love and hope