sara did something this weekend. it kills me. i love her so much, and it just feels like a slap in the face. i didn't even know she was a virgin. i thought she has lost it back in her "wild" days. it doesn't really matter to me. i mean it's her choice to make. she is number 1 on my list of cool people. even after it all. i just wish i she was awake so i could talk to her about it and let her know i'm behind her. i just wish i was there for her more. this shit wouldn't even be happening.