anyone who has been reading my journal is bound to be confused by now with my sara situation. if you care, this one is for you. she's broken up with her BF, Cody. we are not together. me and sara are not a couple in the traditional sense. we hug, hold hands, cuddle and such signs or affection. but mostly i'm like her guardian and confidant. she's not interested in the drama of the boyfriend/girlfriend thing. niether am i. it's alot of BS. but we do have alot of affection and feelings for each other. i mean, i think this could really be a great relationship, because when all is said and done, if we do end up "together" sometime we'll have tons of history and confidence in our relationship. for all intents and purposes we are together. we look together. but it's a deeper love than i have had witha girl before. there is no 'getting to know" part here. we know each other, and we love each other, but now the tide has turned and things flow a bit differently. still together, still in harmony, but a bit different. i think she's just secure with me because she knows that we are holding each other accountable for our indiscretions. we'll be the first to tell each othetr something is fucked up. we have no secrets, no drama, no deciet, no scandal, just us. but we aren't official and we aren't even kissing as of yet. she needs her space and her time to sort out her headspace. i've been through exactly what she's going through. and i understand all that. i don't long for her love, i don't long for her affection. i have it. i am secure. we a friends first, above all. we got each others' back. my love is come full circle. reciprocal emotion. pure love. there are no shadows, only light. let it shine down on me. we have our faith and we have each other, whom shall we fear?