yeah, i feel sober. i got fired thursday, i don't wanna talk about it. i did my job and the the contactor is an asshole, my original supervisor was cool, but he isn't the boss and the boss fired my ass like a match. anyways.... i'm tired all the time lately, i can feel how depressed i am underneath my skin. is everything hunky-dory? is my life what i make it, or is it sand slipping between my fingers? should i let it all go. i'm trying to do the right thing. but i need so much more than i have. i mean i NEED it, it's not just a want or some shallow desire. but i need companionship, i need a band, i need a job. or i'm gunna explode. suicide is out of the question, but i've always been prone to persistence and perserverance, drive and will. my ego has become so beaten down it's eating away at my self-esteem. something has got to give.