hey buuuddy. i've known you a litle over 2 years now kid. i met you at krt's christmas party and fell in love when i walked in the door. you went with jacob after that and as crushed as i was, i let it go a respected your descision and always honored your relationship and never talked about "us" again. even though i'm not madly hopelessly in love with you anymore (to be honest, i think it was just a severe case of white heat) i do love you kid. you're one of my favourite people to have a conversation with. i still want there to be an "us". but i don't see that happeneing, so this is me letting that go, and just letting you know that i'm letting it go. the proverbial ball is in your court on that one. i havn't really thought about you in a long time, to be honest, i havn't been around much and us talking alot more recently has gotten the old feelings stirred up again, but this time it's all different. i just want you to be happy, and if that means no us, then i just want you to find someone who will respect you and love you the way you should be. jacob is a nice guy and my friend, i grew up with the kid, but he fucked up and maybe you did too. but that's over now, and past. we can't change our past, we can only build on it. whatever happens i'll be here. know that. when life has got you down, let me be your elevator. i love you kid, head up. peace love and whatever makes you smile...