It took me about a full day later that Erika and I were really broken up again. I should really leave her alone because I've basically pushed us being together on her since the very first time I got with her almost three years ago. With all the changes I feel like I've gone through in just the last year and a half, I think this would be the best addition for her and me both--for me to move on. For her to move on or whatever she wants to do. I'm sure it's better that way. I can't say it's meant to be because I, unlike a lot of people, believe true love isn't letting fate find the right person for one, but finding it yourself and letting it grow on you. Or maybe love is just selfish. That's how I've seen it for a long time anyway. A person only loves someone because they make him/her happy. Either way, I think it is time for change and this truly is the end for Erika and I as a couple. Honestly I think this is a change I'm suddenly looking up to because I think Erika has long since been ready to end it. Maybe that's why she's found me both annoying and an asshole for a while now? With that in mind, I don't think we're compatible in that way. She enjoys physically abusing me and hurting my feelings from time to time and I want to us be treated equally between eachother, while I believe she likes having the upper hand. And that can never work, especially since I believe I've hit a stage in my life where I no longer want to allow anyone to get one over on me. While I'm trying to make our split feel like a good thing, I'm also growing more unhappy. Our parting has made me come to a further realization that I don't feel many people relate to me or just want to even be my friend[Or as Erika has jokingly--or at least I think she was joking--said "Everybody hates you and wishes you would die" ;p ] or maybe I just need to show my character to more people instead of holding back my personality from those I feel shy around because I don't think they'll ever try to understand me before coming to the conclusion that something is probably wrong with me mentally, when in reality I'm probably far more intelligent than they are. I love you, Erika. -The Comatose Phobos