Even though you want to forget All those things from before, There isn't one thing to regret. I should be sleeping right now, but I'm lonely instead. I saw my old friend's parents in Wal-Mart a little over 24 hours ago, and it's really sad to see his mother's face. She's gotten so aged and almost grotesque, and I can only wonder if the way he grew from sweet and innocent to sickening and idiotic made her that way. So I was lurking on someone's MySpace. Spying on them in attempt to get under this person's skin (Hoping they don't use that program that shows who's been to your myspace). And I found she was connected to a friend of a friend of mine. And somehow I end up at my old friend's myspace, and I'm reading his stuff and then his friend (my enemy's stuff), and there's this longing inside me to get to know them again, so I can hopefully get one of them alone and beat the shit out of them. Something inside me wants to get either of them, and bash their head against asphalt under a bright moon. I want to jump on top of him, grab him by his hair, while he is looking into my eyes and just bare his head against the ground. I want to put all my pressure on it, and feel the rocks going into his skull, and when I bring his head back up, little pebbles will be lodged into it. And then hit his head against the ground once more really hard, just to be spiteful. Then I want to punch him in the nose, and ask him why he has to be who he is. And turn him around, and push his front side into the ground.I want his teeth to be hanging out of his head, and I want his entire face to be red from shame and blood. And I want to drag him by his poor, pathetic, piece of shit head, into water where he'll never be found, and I'll never be caught. But that'll never happen. I think that 'Live Keen' has an interesting irony to it. I just now thought about that. That's an anagram of your name, by the way, Kevin Lee. And no, none of this entry has anything to do with you, obviously. I was just thinking about you all of the sudden. I have to be awake in about four hours. ;- -JG