I'm not a jealous person. I'm seriously not a jealous person.
Gosh, I fucking hate it that he still talks to Kelly. Well, I don't hate that...I just have this giant fucking fear that they'll start liking each other again and he'll totally ditch me for her. And yeah. But seriously. I think that is totally possible for him to end up doing to me.
I don't want this. I didn't sign up for it.
And like, what if she still likes him? Well, she was the one who broke up with him. But still, she sort of acts like it.
Okay, I've had this in my head since like yesterday. Seriously. I can't take it. And I don't want to talk to Ryan about it, I'd feel bad. He knows something is wrong with me. It's a bit more thanobvious.
Gosh, I just don't know what to doo. Maybe I'll hang out with him in NY tomorrow, I hope so. I can NOT feel like this.
I always do this to myself
This time, it isn't worth ruining.
at all.
ooh, the dave matthews band.
not that's even luckier. (=
especiallyy with this special boyy.
well, i doubt that this kellyy and ryan would just start liking each other again. or at least, tryy not to be so unrespinsive to ryan to give him a chance to like her again.
i hate it when that happens to me.
like something would just begin, and i would give myself a time limit before things would end.
the important thing is to take the risk. to be audacious in everyy thing youu do. and i guess it wouldn't hurt to trust in ryan, too.
i know i know, i feel like such a horrible hypocrite right now. becuase i'm kinda realizing what i should have done.like a rude awakening. that isn't rude.