Happy Birthday Chadwick; You should have been 19 today. Instead, you are staying eighteen... forever. I miss the fucking hell out of you. Not a day goes by when I don't think of you. It still seems unrealistic, but it has been nine months [yesterday] since you've been gone. I yearn to hug you one more time. Talk to you. Even see your arse. Just one last time. I miss you, I love you. I really, really, really love you. RIP And happy birthday. I know you're looking down on us right now. I can't wait until I can visit you again, and tell you about life. I know you enjoy that. I know you do. I saw Sil when I was home, she seems like she's been doing well. She has a lot of great friends to fall back on. I'll attempt to be there more for her this summer than I was last summer. I miss you so incredibly much. Love always, Jamie