Isnt it the goddamnedest thing when you fall in love with your best friend? This recently happened to one of my friends. . she realized that she might have feelings for one of our other friends. Yes, thi has happened to me before, but he was never like my "best" friend. How are you supposed to deal with something like that? I feel for her. . she is definitely in my prayers . . lol. My current predicament: I am in love with this guy, who, i think, hates me. I know that he used to, but i dont know if his feelings about me have changed though. We have the most fucked up history ever, but in some wierd way, it kinda works for us. Maybe thats just me, but i dont find it to be as complicated as everyone else does. I guess i just havent thought much about it. I mean, i think about him alot, but our situation rarely burdens my thoughts. I guess i try not to think about it bc maybe it is really that fucked up. . .and the thought of it just scares me to much, but i dunno. For some reason, with all the shit i go through with this guy, good and bad, i keep holding on to these feelings. I will never understand this fully. I guess its just like my friend told me, (you know, the one who is harboring a strange love for her best friend,) I guess i just, for some odd reason completely unnapparent to me, feel safe liking him. Even though i get my heart broken continuously, i just feel. . i dunno. . . safer. Its wierd and im sure none of you can relate to either of these situatons, but if you can, or have anything to say, please let me know. . im sure it will make me and my friend feel a lil bit better if we're not the only ones. ~thanks~