I am barely breathing.

Feeling: abandoned
Argh. Hours after Matt got his new gameboy-ish-thingo the Mario music is fucking annoying the crap out of me. Wow, I've been listening to him on that thing all day as well as the droning on of people on the phone since about 4:30 this afternoon when I called Sarah for like an hour and a half. After that, Kat called and then Stephanie and Rachel. So yeah, I've been napping or on the phone since I got home from shopping with Debbie. I got two new piercing studs and some randomly bright colored clothing from Old Navy with that gift certificate. I really didn't think I was going to find anything to buy there but I had to choose between things that's how much cool shit there was. Neon yellow off-the-shoulder sweaters rock my world. I'm gonna come back from Christmas break with my hair cut and dyed black and hopefully I'll be getting my new glasses soon. Woot. I realized I really like changing my appearance quite frequently. I went through raver stage, hard core stage, and now emo-in-sweaters stage all since September. Heh. Overall everything I own still looks like highlighter vomit. That's just the way I like it. I do myself proud when I have people coming up to me telling me they love my fashion sense and want to pull it off. Yeah, I'm not BSing, seriously. I get so giddy when someone calls me pretty or compliments something of mine. Heh. Perhaps I'm kinda conceited? Oh well... There's aspects I like about myself and aspects I hate. Honestly, I think I have a pretty face but I'm too much of a fat ass from the stomache down. I ate way too much today. When I eat a lot I just want to keep eating. When I stop and start having more self control, I don't need to eat as much and don't crave food as much. But yeah, I'm going to have to start cracking down again because for the last couple days I was letting myself slack off... Shit. It's only 11:00 which meant Kat only left an hour and a half ago meaning she probably won't be home for another two hours or whatnot. This sucks. I wait all week to actually have time to talk to her and now she's not going to have time. Aw well. It's not like I can tell her not to have a life because it's good that she has friends she can see outside of school. I know, I do too... I'm just lazy and don't take initiative. However, me and Julie are probably going to do something or other tomorrow which is cool. We're boycotting the damn Sadie Hawkins dance. I could boycott for the soul reason that they didn't play the entire Relient K song over the PA system today. I was so pissed! I'm gonna buy the CD with the song on it with some Christmas money if I end up getting more... Otherwise... I'll have to make money to get it. No wait, Debbie returned Gwen because she decided to become a hip hop kid so I can get it. Yay. Heh. I borrowed Steph's Gwen Stefani CD and was so pissed that the rest of it is really really horrible. I couldn't even get through it. Gwen is still fucking gorgeous but.... No more respect for her. *sigh* Ok, this is really long and run-onny... I'm going.
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Thanks, youre a sweetheart, your diary is very Zen, nice work Master Kahn!
You've got a habit for long entries my dear. You should call your poor, sick little old fluffy!
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