So yeah, this is the most depressing-but-beautiful song ever. I now worship From First To Last... and Senses Fail, Finch, Atreyu, The Used, and Dead Poetic. Lately all I've been listening to is screamo. It's just fit my mood, which I can't really describe. I'm not depressed like I was. I just need something loud that makes a statement but still remains in the shadows. Whatever. It's hard to explain other then if I have to fucking hear Howie Day one more time during art class I'm going to break that CD in two. "Granola boys" are waaay over-rated. So, I'm alive. I'm surviving each day. Is that an update enough for you? Today, Cody and I went to the mall and met up with Andrew there. It was so good to see him after so long. It was so awkward when it came time to go though and my mom met him and Cody was crying and I almost cried. (yeah, one really long run-on sentence) He's such a sweet guy though and it was great seeing him again in person. He said it might be years before he comes back to this area again. It made me feel really empty inside to think that. The whole experiance now almost seems like a dream because now things will go back to how they've been for so long. I don't know, he's been like a big brother to me in terms of closeness for over year or so now and it was said to see him go right when he got here. Isn't that how things are in general though? I've said it before and I'll say it again, the good situations go by all too fast. I won't see much of Kelly now for two weeks. Rachel is going to Florida over spring break and I'm pretty sure both Stephanie and Mercedes are grounded. Man, it's all a little sad to think about right now. I'm really in the mood to have company lately. I'm so clingy I'm surprised my friends aren't sick of me. Aw well... I appreciate them... Some more then others, and then there's that feeling past just friendship that I don't bother to write about in a blog anymore because I don't feel like that's anyone's business but my own. It just stopped feeling right to pour out everything here or to one of these things. It's like it almost waters down the whole experiance. Well yeah, before I get any more emo on ya'all, I'm gonna stumble away to the merry land of reading slash and writing English essays. Cheerio. ♥