Saturday, 8:21 p.m.   No matter how hard I try Normally when I write something down in an entry I feel so much better about it. But as the seconds and minutes and hours tick by I get angrier and angrier with myself. I want to kick my head in one minute and the next I want to give myself a hug. And I want to cry so hard my nose plugs up and my head hurts and I want to laugh aloud. I want to scream and I want to whisper..... I'm so frustrated. I don't know at all what to do.