1:30 Thursday Morning Whenever I see him I think "he's so hott. wow is he hott." Like something unattainable, like he's so popular, so cool. So smart. So much better than me. "I wish he liked me." And all in the span of a nanosecond or so, I remember "Hah! That's my boyfriend!" I like him so much. So much. I bought his christmas present today, A bubble gun. I hope he likes it. It cost me five bucks. I bought my sister censored . It took me a while to decide. But I was in and out in ten minutes. I hate shopping. I like giving, but only if I know what I'm getting is going to be well received, and I like watching people be happy. I just hate having to decide what thoughtful sort of gift to get people when i nearly always have no idea. I also hate receiving. Especially expensive gifts. I'm not worth that sort of thing. All I want is a hug. A kiss on the cheek (or the lips, depending on who you are). Maybe some trifle with a little bit less sherry. You could also get me a 2liter of ice cream. chocolate ice cream. If you get me a 2 liter of Dr. Pepper, I'll give it to my mom because i know how much she loves Dr. Pepper. But I never really know what I want. But when I do know, I buy it myself. I went to the party at Sayla's. Not sure how welcome exactly I was. But I like Yvetti and Laura. I don't like Hyun Woo hitting on me. I don't like Hyun Woo's vibes about me. I like Caleb. He's So wonderful. Despite that he's impatient sometimes, it's something i can tease him about. If he was perfect, I wouldn't feel right. I liked the analogy i used in Chelsea M's diary. I liked it a lot. I felt so clever, for thinking it up on the spot like that, like maybe I was articulate and elegant and my thoughts were witty. But I know that's not true. You don't write 'um' in literature. I say 'um' too much. At least I don't say 'lol' anymore. I use onomotopoeia on a regular basis, and sometimes hyperbole. but my favourite expression, adaptable to many things, is "Rah!" or "Rawr" or really anything one-syllabled with a "raw" noise at the beginning. I bite people I like. ear snogging is sexy. I don't know what I'm doing.