what if's are nice to think about, but when i dwell upon too manyy what if's and maybe's, things tend to spiral downwards for me.

everything always ends up the opposite of how i daydreamed them to be. like theyy were jinxed. or something.

if a stranger told me theyy loved me, i would fall in love with their audacityy. but that's just it.

&things are similar with the boyy i like, as we don't know each other all they well, either.

...there was no light, nothing wrong nothing right...