Love is all I've ever known and is all I felt I would never have, yet I know it's something I've wanted and something others have wanted to give to me, but I find myself so faultered in my own life that I can't choose between the love God put in front of me! I don't know if I'm searching for the easy way out or whether I'm trying to understand and do what's intended for my future - my destiny. You know; I've loved others and fell in love with a girl so recently long ago, but deep down my mom is the only woman I've ever really loved - she was my World - and I lost her.. in a way to scar the heart and mind for so long that you could go a hundred life times before you could ever love naturally again without questioning that love with doubt. A girl says to me she loves me and I don't want in... ok, it's understandable.. but what if numerous girls were to tell me they love me; would I still feel the same way? I'm not satisfied much in life right now - too much routine in uni and not enough helping the World as I would intend to be doing - it makes me feel restless. I find myself not being able to understand what I thought I wanted out of life. I don't know if any person can really understand me and believe that what I feel is really of that much complication and significance. In the quietest of words but the loudest of actions, I'll let the World know I love them so. Yet still my greatest struggle continues to fall flat on it's face!