i don't think people realize the things they say sometimes. or maybe i'm just overly paranoid. or overly pathetic. i'm redoing my room. i'm excited. i hope i get to paint it green. i spent the day at josh's house today. first with kyle and grayson and josh. and then just with josh. it was nice. he's got the cutest siblings ever. i'm still looking for a car. they're all starting to look exactly the same. i don't really care anymore. i just want a car. mileage and all that crap doesn't matter. just get me a damn car! i was hoping things would be settled before lake mead. i guess i was hoping for too much. maybe it will get settled at lake mead? who knows what can happen in a week.