i'm trying to be optimistic i'm trying to accept things as they come because everything has a reason but i think i'm mostly doing it because theres really no point in dwelling on my emotions when no one cares to understand or when they just focus on me being at fault oh boy. i'm over it lately i've been feeling like i don't have enough friends and i'm talking close friends i guess but at the same time i don't care to make more. most people i know aren't people i'd want to be SUPER close with but then again i do need to make an effort and get closer to some people because they're AMAZING but mostly our school is so fake. we're all focused on our cars and our clothes and our drugs and alcohol and the partys we go to and the boys we date and slut that she is. we're all guilty of it including myself and its funny because honestly how will that make you a better person? girlfriend? wife? friend? a better anything ? i've gotten to a point where i come to school most days and i don't care what i look like because the people i hang out with care enough about what they look like for me on most days i'm ready to leave this town