that 2009 is going to have a lot of realizations and that i have a lot of growing up to do...is definitely one i realized just recently i'm fairly immature and not because i'm not mature but because i tend to choose my immature impulses when i'm overwhelmed by emotions also i don't let it out when i need to to just have fun so ultimately i need to learn to control my immaturity and learn to balance it out with my maturity so its all about figuring out which one is right for which situation :) i also am still working on NOT judging people i tend to do it more when i don't know them because when i get to know people...or even just hang out with them...i really do like almost everyone unless you fuck me over! i'm learning not to let mean people affect me and i'm learning they dont really need to be a hindrance in my life nor do they need to be in my life with their negativity. i also need to learn that i need to keep my job for a long period of time if in any way possible although there may be better ones out there. But when i have a job i need to keep it and learn to work my life around it or else i'm never going to be successful in my career. haha i need to stick with the positive things and the things that make my life run smoothly and i need to learn self control and i need to learn to let the hurt roll off my shoulders oh, 2009, i can tell already, you're going to be a good year for me, tough, but good. january 17, 2009