im holding on to the past and no not past boys. just the past in general. my relationships with everyone. my love for dance. my desire to become better. i'm holding on. but i'm jumping over the present and wishing for the future. college new friends experiences husband career family love. apparently i just can't seem to make up my mind, but things are going good. i think. stephanie is the best ever and i hope our friendship grows. and of course i'm interested in a boy. and everyday i become confused of what could happen, but i suppose thats the way it goes. i really need to cherish it because i'm going to look back and wonder why i was such a fool when it came to boys and why i let them confuse me so and i'll wish i was 16 again. bitter sweet 16. 2004 was good. yeah bad things happened i made big mistakes but i suppose regretting them isn't healthy and of course they help you become stronger and make you who you are. its life. its experience. its always taken for granted though. we never appreciate things until they're gone. then you try and go back to that exact moment, but you can't. it's never the same. i want to cherish everything and everyone and everymoment and try not to take it for granted. try not to demolish it with anger and jealousy. to just accept it. and me. to accept me. that should be one of my biggest resolutions to accept me. who i am and what i'm worth. to want to become a better person but at the same time realize that i'm not a horrible person either. not to put myself down but to know that i can do better. at everything. being a friend. a girlfriend ?. a sister. a daughter. a student. a dancer?. a worker. a citizen. i want to be knowledgeable. to be well rounded in all categories. some of these may not take just one year but multiple, but i suppose its something i need to start on. just a thought though.