i am definitely getting used to my new surroundings and this means i'm learning i need to lay low a little more. i'm learning that girls are vicious and they come in packs of course i always knew girls were mean, but even in orange county i don't remember anyone being so horrible to each other maybe i just happened to surround myself around fairly good people where when people are friends...that actually means something. they don't sleep with each other's boyfriends or break down people's bedroom doors and steal their stuff and trash their belongings. i couldn't ever imagine that happening in good ol' yorba linda or anaheim hills. could it have been i was just too naive to realize? here, people talk, they exclude, they bitch, they moan, they steal, cheat, and just screw each other over. i suppose i've walked into a couple situations that i didn't know about and perhaps thats my fault for not taking things slower i suppose most everything has been forgiven, but i can't help but think it will always be held over my head i think i trust people too easily...but sometimes not easily enough. around here, it might be best to keep to myself a bit more. and honestly, the guys are fine, they're nice, civil even....where the girls just don't know how to behave and keep their mouth's shut can you really claim a guy that you never intend to make any moves on? or a guy that is only your side dish when you have the real thing 8 hours away but he doesn't want to be second best anymore? it's a horrible feeling knowing you can't trust anyone with anything you say maybe that's the way small towns work i'm trying to get to know people and be accepted but i think i need to find someone just as new or as lost as i am or maybe just someone who is more open to new people i need to take a step back, slow down and ease my way into this