i think i'm choosing not to care. keith + karin= not dating which= keith blaming me because karin told him she didn't want to date him because it would ruin our friendship. she failed to mention her 20 million other reasons. karin= being mad at me for telling keith she had more reasons because i wanted him to stop blaming me me= not caring one bit be mad at me i don't care its pretty much still your fault and i don't care i don't really want to be around any of you right now. not at all. not one bit. but i'm too scared to switch lunch tables. and i'm too scared to try and hang out in a different group at break. and all you want is to be "cool" you're the epitome of trying to fit in. i try to be liked. but to me they are two way different things. and i'm tired of it and i'm kind of tired of all of you my job is getting tiring and old and stressful i think i'm making new friends but i'd really like new close friends better friends. less dramatic friends. just fun caring and especially dependable friends. i haven't made too many of those. especially not dependable ones. i don't hate school but i hate my grades and my mom still won't let up on the 3.0 and its harder with 7 classes and a job but she still doesn't get that i'm just tired of caring and not being cared about. its wearing me thin or thicker actually weights always been a problem and its getting worse with each day ugh. its time to go back.