its not true. i'm glad i wasted my time with you. and i wish i could waste more of it with you. and you and only you and you and me. but i told myself i wouldn't admit it not to you not to myself or to anyone and here i am but to hold it in is killing me and i'm sorry but its even worse when you have no close friends. no best friends. no friends. thats why i rely on you, journal. how lame, but how reliable. im sure partly its my fault and i'm sure it'll be a little better when i'm not grounded but how much? not much. based on the fact that it was like this before i was grounded. i want to meet new people or maybe i've met them but i don't know them and i want to fall in love it'll happen in its own amazing, beautiful time but i have no patience for time it would be the best christmas present i could ever receive and i'm jealous just tell me its ok tell me i'm normal to feel this way tell me not enough time has passed tell me just tell me you feel the same way say it