I have decided to write a diary, at night when I can put in anything. There are some private things I may end up putting in, but my entries will always be read by all, no matter what they say. This is the first entry of my written diary, word for word: I have decided to keep a private journal, which I am not sure what to do with when I run out of pages. Perhaps my ex-girlfriend, who I have just written a small note to, will want to know what is going on in my mind. I am suffering from depression, not because of the break-up, but because I have no positive emotion left. I have decided to give up on love, because it can only lead to pain and unhappyness. When I am with someone I have positive thoughts, but when I am alone, with my negative ones, it feels more natural. I guess I am ment to be alone. May as well put this onto sitdiary, that's what it's there for, after all. Bloomfield