I wrote all this today, in four entries [they are seperated] throughout the day... I'm sitting in english as i write this, planning to type it up when the lesson ends. I'm not giving up on 'bob' just yet. I found recently, people are still very primative. All these wars are teratorial and/or dominance related. And all these houses and such are for warmth, food, drink, comfort. We try so hard to sway from out animal 'brothers' and animalistic instincts, and yet everything we do is because of these basic instincts we try so very hard to keep away from. Whether we like it or not, we cannot draw a perfectly clear line between ourselves and our 'brothers' -'Bob' is back, bitch... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Well, couldn't be bothered to go type it up yet, i'll do it later. Now that i'm back the way i was, i think it's time we had some fun. So, today i'm gonna be in control, and we will go completely fuckin' insane. Let's go cause havoc. And, as Arkhan would say, 'Lets welcome chaos'! -I'm here to stay motherfuckers, get used to it ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Alright, third one on it's way. I'm on a role today! And i aint stopped for anyone or anythin. OK, so i aint goin in my lesson, but i will get the work done at home or somethin. It will get done, eventually. And for now, this is my main focus. Can't believe my lil sis, B, fell for that damn trick, the same i played on her a week ago. If i can get the recording of it onto the computer, i'll send it round to a few people, get it spreadin. But suddenly, i feel bad again. Not because of that, but for some other reason. I can't figure it out, but it's started eatin away at me, like it used to. If i could figure out what this fuckin thing is, it'd be solvable easy, but there is just some fucked up conflict in my head, mixed with traces of... guilt? What do i have to be guilty about? This is hurting, i'm hurting, and i don't know why. I can't figure any of this fuckin bullshit out. -FUCK! ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ I'm gettin pissed off at all these annoying little fuckwits. The empty, lonely feeling is back and it's time i did somethin about it. Known friends in this fucked up world all live in America, buried somewhere within the 50 United States. Oh, how i wish i was back there. I miss them so much when without SitD. Only 'friends' here is england are my brother and my dad. This sucks. Maybe i should run off to the U.S. of fucking A. and spend some time with 'highfire'. She's always so nice and friendly. A true friend. Not like the cocksuckers you find here in Reading. I'm annoyed, this needs typing up, writing more is a bad idea. -Catch ya'll later P.S. [Loves ya Jessi]