So, I drowned yesterday, and today I am dead. Or at least acted like I drowned and fooled my lil sister(9 years old). But I do feel as though I am dead. I am not happy with my life, and there is someone I need to talk to, but she is ignoring me. I have been told many times that I am crazy, or a freak, or strange, but, in all truth and honesty, I do not know how else to act. I was happy for a brief moment yesterday, when I was floating upside-down, almost as though I was actually dead. This may seem very morbid, but it is how I feel. I can not cry very often, so all my emotions end up bottled up. It get worse and worse every day, it is tearing me apart. Anything would be better then the life I lead, I would rather be dead, or a tiny little bug. At least then I would not have all this pain. It hurt so much, I don't know what to do. help me... Your all beautiful