I have been living a lie, I was never ment to be happy. I never did exist, or do exist. I have given up on happiness, and love. Because, together with my trust, they have hurt me, alot. The only thing stopping me from putting actual vulgar language is the fact that Christopher will read this. That is also the reason I have not been completely truthful, I did not want him to worry. Your all beautiful, but it is all fake