She's leaving, leaving the country, probably for good. I keep telling myself it's better off this way, she's going to be with her sister again, and she'll be happy. But i don't believe what i'm saying, i can't. I refuse to accept she will be gone forever. She has no idea how much i will miss her, even if we do only talk online. I don't get it; i thought there was nothing left between us. So how come i feel such a terrible sadness from her leaving, never returning? We were never really close, just friends, so where is this emotion coming from? I shouldn't be missing her this much. She is still here, but i know how much i'll miss her based on how much i miss her just knowing she'll be gone in a week. I guess what i'm trying to say, trying so hard to avoid admitting, i dont want it to be true, she's going forever i should not fell like this. I'm trying to say, as i realise myself, I still love her...